Change: hard but necessary.

It’s been a while! A lot has changed in the last few weeks and that’s the theme of this post.

-Friday 20th July-

This was my last day at Knollmead, the primary school I taught at (it feels weird writing in the past tense!). It was a pretty emotional week. I am usually the one that cries at the end of every school year saying goodbye to my class anyway- I get so attached to the children and feel so proud when I think about how far they’ve come over the year. I have only taught year 3 so far, which is the transition year from Infants up into Juniors, and I love that I get to guide the children through that. I also get upset saying goodbye to the year 6 children who I always bond with after directing the end of year production, when they leave to go to secondary school. This year it was all doubled by the fact I knew I was also leaving and wouldn’t be able to pop back and visit next year!

Knollmead will always be special to me. It was where I secured my first ever teaching post, I did my Newly Qualified Teacher year there and have learned so much. My NQT year was made even more difficult by a massive change in my personal life; coming out of a 7 year relationship, having to move around a lot and living out of a suitcase was not easy. Combined with trying to get my head around a new and hugely demanding job, it was a crazy year. It was during this time I formed relationships with some of my best friends and I will forever be grateful to them for their love and support during a really tough year for me. During this year I also met Matt, now my boyfriend, and again I can’t describe how much this guy has done for me and how important he has been in my staying sane! It will be so strange not seeing them all every day at work but I feel so lucky to have been able to do so over the last 3 years. We have all got something really special and I can’t wait to make more memories in the future.

 

-Sunday 29th July-

The day I moved out of my home for the past year and 9 months. This is the longest I’ve lived anywhere since I left my family home 5 years ago. Here’s some context…

In the midst of my turbulent first two years at Knollmead, I ended up homeless due to the end of my then-relationship. This isn’t as dramatic as it sounds but I did have to stay on a friend’s sofa (floor) for a few weeks. I honestly wouldn’t be where I am now without amazing friends! This was when I found a house-share near my school. I was pretty nervous about living with others I didn’t know (a completely new experience for me) but I had to go for it. It was the fresh start I needed. It certainly paid off and I ended up forming even more amazing relationships with people I now consider not just housemates, but close friends. We have a joke that the house is cursed because we have gone through quite a few people (aside from the original couple of us that moved in together), but again I feel so lucky because everyone has been lovely and we have all got on really well. We are a very sociable bunch and hang out a lot and I am really going to miss living with and seeing my friends every day. In addition to that, it was where Matt and I started our relationship officially and we have so many lovely memories living together there that I will always treasure.

 

For now, I’m back to living out of a suitcase for the next few weeks! This time, however, it’s for positive reasons. I have the six week summer holiday then an additional 4 weeks before I fly to Orlando. I am so excited for so much time off- I will really miss teaching and being busy but I need the break and have definitely earned it. I will be able to see my friends and family and spend some good quality time with them before I go. I can’t wait!

A lot has changed in the last couple of weeks. I don’t like to cry or show emotions to people so I tend to keep it all in or cry in secret… but it has been really hard, especially when it all happens at the same time and I think of the memories made and emotions that I’ve been through.  I keep telling myself though that it isn’t goodbye and that it is all for an amazing opportunity. I will stay in touch with all those people who are dear to me and am looking forward to an exciting future. I hope that the people I have mentioned here are reading this and know how grateful I am. I love you all.

 

L x

One thought on “Change: hard but necessary.

  1. Laura, No-one knows better than I what is is like to move abroad and away from all those that love and support you in both good times and hard. Like I said to you at the BBQ at Mum’s, it’s not going to be easy but it will be worth it. The world is a much smaller place with the internet. You will have days when you wonder if it is the right decision but trust me, those pass and a quick chat with those that matter to you are nearly always enough to boost your mood and set you back on the straight and narrow. Stay strong and stay in touch. I’m so proud of you, I could burst…..Dreams really do come true xxxxx

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